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07 February 2010 @ 04:46 pm
Much juggling?  
Work is like a combination of bricks and cement.
It is like a body of lies, a few certificates here and there that we have been trying to spend years accumulating. It is like conman A and conman B working their way to build a wall for us to tear down for years & year & years. & when we're finally done with the years of "tearing" and stuff, we see another few blocks of walls ahead of us. This is just how it cheats the fuck out of us. Whatever hell reasons they give, it is always "for your own good people" or "it's all for a good cause kids". Right, I would really like to go on and rant for nuts but I'm really sick of this space.

Whatever it is, I would really like to thank my friends for understanding my plight. Others would think I'm giving away reasons for not meeting up and so but this I swear I'm really really mad crazy busy. Work just keeps coming in & sometimes, I feel less like a normal being. I hate to neglect you guys. & if I ever missed your message, I'm sorry darling.
I love you all.

OUTTA HERE
 
 
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30 January 2010 @ 04:40 pm
On a side note,  
.........I WANNA GO CYCLING SO BADLY.

 
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30 January 2010 @ 03:56 pm
I CAN'T BREATHE.  
Time's running super hot on its heels. Good or bad? Whatever.
Let's just gasp: "I cant' breathe I can't breathe I can't breathe."
 
 
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30 January 2010 @ 03:31 pm
To EX-JS bitches :D  
I was killed  instantly on Tuesday, & fag, it's a Tuesday mooderfarger shit.

I don't wanna add Tuesday to my long list of "Thursdayss".

I thank my friends who were there for me on that Tuesday evening. Really thank you guys a lot - y'know who I'm referring to :)
If it wasn't for you guys, I thought I would have quit school and left home for whatever hell the reasons were and probably be found dead somewhere else the next day. I've kept this for so long, so darn long & that day was really like "BANG, HIT IT ELAINE! HIT IT!" well, I just poured it all out for good. & right, I sounded like a sore loser because that problem is something that we all could handle. It's not something beyond my grasp or ass. S is right, our parents wouldn't leave us just like that. My parents were just f_cking avoiding stuff at first (I swear I don't like that), we didn't talk for days but later, they began talking to me about it & this whole shit is like another "USE-IT-IN-LIFE" workshop for me. Another darn workshop that Lord God has planned for me. I know I can't blame God forever on these weaknesses me & my parents have, I know I can have the pluck to accept and deal this shit myself.

It's tormenting and stuff, a dead-end, like I'm drowned in a sea of waves, or probably like a big empty mess that enjoys chewing me while I'm trying to get away from its tongue tornado - I'm always dealing this influx of bullshit, but I just have to say to this shit mess, "I'm not your food you jackass."

So yea, this I have to say again, thank you guys for all the listening and advices you gave. Oh oh & if, by any chance, I sounded disturbing to you guys over on the phone that Tuesday night or the 500 millionth number of times I keep mentioning to you about that shit issue of mine everyday, forgive me haha. I know I was whimpering like a mouse man ler-mao.

WELL, I GOTTA KEEP RUNNIN''
 
 
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23 January 2010 @ 01:57 pm
--  


"Cherry Waves"

In a sea of waves
We hug the same plank
Just as I had rehearsed it over in my brain
(I saw your end)

If the waves suck you in, and you drown

If like you should sink down beneath
I'll swim down. Would you? Would you?

You hang anchors over my neck
I liked it at first
But the more you you laughed, the crazier I came

And the waves suck you in, and you drown

If like you should sink down beneath
I'll swim way swim down. Would you?

Is that what you want?
You...
Well that's what you've got

Wave...after...wave...

If like you should sink down beneath, I'll swim down,
Would you?

Is that what you want?
With you
Is this what you want?
With you, you

Escape...below...
 
 
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