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The instant case.

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 01:21:14 GMT

Oh yea, my instincts are telling me that I ain't gonna enjoy this coming holiday.
I'm pissed with myself. Right, looking at the rate of how I spend my money within hours or minutes and so, ask & tell me this, "Why the fuck are you doing this? Go & scorch your own ass!" Well the truth is, I've done with scorching too many million times already, I'm gonna be broke (been this many times, again) in a week's time. Oh how wonderful, and that would mean that I've gotta get money from Mom again. I felt like a loser whenever I ask her for money. I don't want to do that grrr.
Damn, I'm out for that stupid Dover place :(

TTYL

Fact No.18597871XX

Sat, 05 Dec 2009 17:57:35 GMT

Right, I'm sucha fucking joke.
Yes, you know. & yes, I am. Well, I'm stuck & I'm completely speechless.
I wanna be out of it!

Let me rest for a day even if it sounded unreasonable!

Tue, 01 Dec 2009 18:58:43 GMT

Tonight's one of the the craziest nights so far.
Spending Tuseday's night at Chips is the best. (Budget ttm I swear.) & if you don't see me around in school later on, well yea, please note that that would mean I've given up on this week's Wednesday. Sure enough, this week's Wednesday is gonna be a good'o slacking day if everyone allows it (well, because I've unflagging conscience & therefore, I should have a day's break).
Right, so I'm telling you this, do have mercy on me for this day of absence & till then, I shall see you soon.

Wish #1.

Mon, 30 Nov 2009 12:49:45 GMT

I would like to buckle my ass to the chair and read the law notes.

Stupid food.

Mon, 30 Nov 2009 11:15:53 GMT

I'm courting death for the flimsiest reason, that is, food doesn't wanna acknowledge my existence.
They don't like me at all, and neither do I.
I hate this, I'm hungry but the food isn't doing what it's supposed to do. It doesn't make me feel human enough to eat.

Pray that I'll have appetite for dinner later.

Eating disorder?

Sun, 29 Nov 2009 14:29:07 GMT

"What is it again," I asked myself.

EATING DISORDER PART II WANNA-BE?
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Right, like again, I'm not into weight issues, but this darn thing is continuously having me on for days.

Take for example, today, I was terribly hungry but I just drank and drank and drank & the only solid food I had was cheeseburger, a slice of beef mind you if you wanna talk about carnivore, it's nothing compared to a double cheese. Which is why I think I could actually survive on a meal a day. Well, it's not even a meal fuck much huh? Food's all turning me off. They look poisonous for all I care. And, yea again, wouldn't that give a weight loss of about 0.04532451457kg? And if we add up all these shit digits together, wouldn't that give a weight loss of about 2kg in an awesome week? Shit, did I just say "an awesome week"? I don't know, I can't believe I have such optimistic worldview for life.

Anyway, I guess the weather is probably the main culprit behind this syndrome of mine.

Bye.

The stalking game.

Mon, 23 Nov 2009 18:22:42 GMT

TE_'S A FUCKING STALKER.
Omg, I cant believe this. [Hold it: You might not know him you'd say but who cares?] Anyway, I've found out his blog.. His blog entry about....damn, ask me if you see me around. You'll go "WHAT?!" Hmm, maybe not but you'll be surprised at the extent he went and whatnots. The second Larry wanna-be. Well, don't make me do this Te_. I don't wanna put you under the list of Larries.
Fuck & right, that boy wants to play the game.

A note to pimps.

Sun, 22 Nov 2009 17:58:31 GMT

Right, I know I know. I know this is gonna come anytime sooner.
Pimples, just be quiet kay? Well, because you aren't a complimentary to go with, & because I've got a relatively "fair"/yellow "fair" skin, it's so not nice just to even have one of you on it. You get it? Damn, you're such a hassle, like Larry. Yes, like Larry the despo one, just that you guys are red and he's yellow-skinned like me.

Stars for Larry.

Sun, 22 Nov 2009 17:01:07 GMT

All right, like F STAR STAR STAR to LARRY!
Damn, congratulations ass, you pissed me off, despo hun! Fag off!

The Thursday week.

Fri, 20 Nov 2009 06:49:28 GMT

I've got sensitive skin, girls. Thanks to the effing make-up I must have for this Thursday week. Shows after shows, yeah I enjoy rushing for shows. I enjoy rushing madly for fun. & well, full blast of those make-up could kill/damage my skin (right probably not in your case), but not too much badly for now than as before. Maybe I'm not young anymore & hence skin is less reactive, screwed.

This week is Thursday, terribly Thursday. I used Thursday like it's an adjective. It's making me busy and tired, but I'm enjoying it, which is good, unbelievably good. Yesterday, during the battlefield plastic-prince fairytale show I thought to myself, maybe I could be that person, I could be that person who can salvage the shit bits of my life and turn them into something good for the future. I'm not useless. I'm not content with life but I could do that. & well, getting straight "A"s for whatever papers or certificates is nothing compared to losing yourself and finding yourself again when you're just watching the flowers grow.
Yea?

RIGHT I'M OUT FOR SCHOOL

Daul Kim why?

Fri, 20 Nov 2009 05:08:21 GMT

Woke up, logged in, & found out Daul Kim's dead.
Right, why are there so many people dying?
I don't get it.

Iliketoforkmyself is dead.

R.I.P Daul Kim
With love from Elaine.

Yeah I was dead last night.

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 04:41:50 GMT

Like I'd said before, "I'm just gonna die on Thursdays and be alive on other good days." now this really works and hence, this is a 100% guaranteed workable plan. Trust me, use it if you really hate Thursdays. Today's not Thursay, & so here I am, alive at this earthly place. My whole body's aching, again, terribly & I felt like I just ran 20 marathons in my dream last night. Only God knows that I'm such a sack of shit now.

I'm not supposed to say a shit about our event's presentation yesterday because we don't want to ________(fill in the blanks because it's sensitive)......Ok, that's fucking hmmm thoughtful in a childish way. Well, I don't suppose "childish" to be meant it in a bad way and also, my vocabulary/Eng-geurlish is shit so forgive me if the word "childish" sounds offensive and stupid. Right, I'm just really satisfied and happy with our pitch yesterday. I'm happy, oh damn, thank you Lord for that happy moment (I'm holier than what you think I am). It's worth working with this group because I've learnt a lot and I have no regrets working with them. All right, I shan't say much because I'm sick of this lousy space right now.

Yours truly, the puppet team aka survivors from LOST.

With credits to shrybird. Well maybe we should buy birds of different species for her birthday, she'll be so happy. Overuse the word "birds" at her, so she'll fall in love with them soon.

OUTTA SPACE

Whoops #1

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 15:57:04 GMT

[Insert] All right, I just can't wait to find time for shopping.

The malign influence?

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 15:16:36 GMT

I'm sure of this... pretty sure that severe insomnia is recurring now. And by then, you'd see me getting all disjointed.
I just can't imagine my life hanging around in school anymore. This is already the fourth week (go O.M.G like how a gay does it), are we machines? Machine-made instead of man-made? All right, I'm not making any sense but it's just impossibly fast to accept this - accepting the fact that how doubly fast everything goes by between you and time. & well, is this good or bad? Whatever. It's not like we've ever done anything wrong.

Let's just watch the flowers grow & get better(hopefully) with life.

Sat, 07 Nov 2009 17:46:46 GMT

I love Niv. I'm bored & I can't sleep.
Oh yea, I can't sleep. I could be better & wholesome, start going to church myself & stuff but before I could do that, I need to train my body clock well first. So again, Lord, please have mercy on me.

Noble Friday.

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 03:33:23 GMT

Flu & sore throat are coming so often. I'm totally in love with it.
& today's already a Friday. I don't thank God for that please. Stop the "TGIF" thing, it doesn't help because tell me, do all Fridays totally stop the "curses" & "shit bits" of your life? No. It's just another day where you would think you can run away to some balls place or whatnots and have some DISCOSTICK fun, shit I'm such a dork.
Ok, ignore me. You know I like to rant much, don't you?

SPAMS AFTER SPAMS PART II.

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 15:00:20 GMT

I just realised...
SUNDAYS ARE GOOD FOR SPAMMING MY OLD BLOG!
1st November: Breaks the record.
Felt so free today. Finally got the chance to stay at home peacefully.

Eve & school.

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 14:48:57 GMT

Damn, are you excited for school?

Because I'm so not for it.
Right, I'm not totally drained by it but I'm dying for holidays. (*Crawling 5 metres away from this seat to tear that calendar up*)
Now tell me, what would have happened if Eve hadn't eaten that damn apple?
Would we really still be naked like them? Would we live longer? Would we still be living in a jungle & making friends with snakes & elephants?
Would we know what's A-B-C? Would we know that education makes us smarter [ not for me :'( ]
Would we behave like "Oh-my-God-I'm-actually-naked-&-so-are-you-shit-we-need-to-cover-up"?"
Would we know what's sex? Would we know what's cool & what's not? Would we know how to deal with the complexity of our emotions?

.......so, should we blame Eve for eating that sixxy apple? Or should we blame God for creating this world? Or should we blame ourselves for thinking too much? Or do you think it's OK for her to eat that apple because you're happy as it is the way you're living now?

Ah, chill man.
I've got to stop crapping like this.

YEAH DONE SPAMMING

Yope.

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 12:55:42 GMT

Tong seng tong seng tong seng tong seng trip again.

"Acquaintance-level".

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 08:38:36 GMT

Played Sims before?
Well if you do, that's a good thing. At least you'd know what I'm talking about here at this lousy space.

You would think "Wow, Elaine everyday chill seh what the shingz man...blah duh whatever you can think of when you think of the word - happy."
Well, tell you what, this I would have to say, "No."
Life is like a game of Sims. Fucking Sims. I had always enjoyed beautifying/damaging the Sims that I'd created. In Sims, you complete as many "wants" as you can, & then you move on to the other stages which could get even harder & harder to deal with. Same goes to relationships, any sort of relationships. You'll either see a "Plus" or the fucking "Minus" sign. Definitely, we all would like to see the "plus" signs as many as we want to see so that we could be best friends, good shits, joke, laugh, cuddle and fuck the other Sims in the game. Whatever that makes life easy for you. That sounded sick. Whatever, my point is, some people are meant to stay just as acquaintances, some worse, enemies. Ok, that doesn't mean I have one. Kick it, I'm cool not to have enemies chey chey chey. Shingz, OK, back to reality. Right, life is too vast to see it all & I would dare say that I've already seen most of its scheme. That's a strong word but it's aptly true for life. You would say, "Come on. Think on the bright side motherfucker. You're only 18 stupid." Well I would say, "Don't you get it? You're already in it. You're part of it. We're all such clueless victims of such a nicely plotted-story. We don't even know that we're part of it." Maybe you would disagree & continue defending the word "Life". I'm not good at debating you know it. I don't care. & it's not that I'm emo shingz, pesimisstic & inspired-what-the-fuck person, like I'd said, I've seen quite a number of fucked up cases, and as jacked & stupid as it sounds, the whole system sucks.

I don't wanna be fake. But thing is, how do you wanna be true when the system wants you not to?
That would depend on how fucked up I am.
Recollecting. I know that I have countless posts of such about "Oh damn you horrible Life." You know I like to do this here.

Because the whole system just sucks.
Post's out-of-random.

Love,
One of the Sims

For Best.

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 06:46:28 GMT

Yes, to you, best.

The day has finally come. You knew it too.
Ace all of them bitch though I know it's hard for you to (instantly went LOL after typing that).
Shit, I'm speechless now because I'm a bitch. I've forgotten what I wanna type here. Damn, & I don't know anything about the word "encouraging" unless you want me to do some school cheers for you like "I've got a fever, I'm hot I can't be stopped." or this "Chika laka piya piya". Well if you really want to, you can always ask. Give me some poms-poms & I'll do it straight. (I'm sucha thoughtful being ever. Praise God!)
Right, just do your best kayZxzX! Better be, you bitch!
I love you. ~~Ima lesbian haha.~~

With love,
Elaine

Pout puffy red solid beautiful lips.

Fri, 30 Oct 2009 19:06:19 GMT

{JANG GEUN SUK IS SO SEXY}

I can stare at his lips for as long as I can.
Alright sure enough of this, no more "AHH ILOVEXXXXXX! HE'S SO CUTE".
It's just so tiring to be someone else's fan, trust me.

I'm not a fan I'm not a fan I'm not a fan.

I can't believe it.

Fri, 30 Oct 2009 17:15:22 GMT

Hello stale, old, stodgy blog.
It's been a long time since I last blogged 2 million years ago.
Everything has made it seemed like it has been summed up to 13 million years. Indescribably fast & slow. Time looks like its running hot on its heels, but I feel like everything's heating up slowly, way toooooo slow (& that's torturous mind you). I don't know what the fuck is torturing me (because Ima generally lost kid here), so don't blame me for being so pessimistic. You know I like to rant much.

Alright nuff said about that. Let's talk about recent stuff.
I'm tired, really tired. I hate Thursday's lessons. I just hate Thursdays. I always thought that Thursdays' schedules are predictably busy, boring and demanding. Unfortunately, I was right. Fag man, well that's in my case. I just gonna die on Thursdays and be alive on other good days. Yeah alright, that's my plan for now.

Today was totally busy too. Unexpected one. Just came home not long ago, & I'm so damn hungry now. Shit, not again? Out with Breast and the beast today(LQTM). Had spent so so so much money on food, and food, and food again, and stuff that I'm lazy to mention (do I look like I would wna tell you everything under the sea? No.) I can't believe that I'm still not broke yet. May God be merciful. Chill it to the max. & duh, I wouldn't wanna talk about Halloween because someone said I look like I would practically have it celebrated everyday - spritually/physically what the shingz? Alright, tired of this. I'm done with it.
Omg, I'm gonna watch You're Beautiful.

Gotta switch.
Have a nice weekend.

Food I.

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 15:43:06 GMT

The mapotoufu that I'd just eaten a few hours ago is the best ever known to man today.
I'm addicted to it, I'm addicted to it. Oh please, let me have some right away. Have me overdosed.
Damn.

& that was some serious exaggeration.
Bye.

1000 envelops in 2 days.

Sat, 24 Oct 2009 15:24:21 GMT

To Jeanette,

It's humanly impossible for that to happen.
So thanks for all the trouble. Scrw off & have a nice weekend.

Love,
Elaine